Sometimes it annoys me. My parents say that it's easier for everyone and my aunt is a lovely woman. Still sometimes I would like a choice in the matter. My home country is a nice one most of the time. I do get treated differently as a second generation immergrant but at least there's work and things are getting better. I have friends in England and I have friends at home. I wish that I could get the two groups to meet.
My friends at home don't really get our character. They get that I kind of want to be a father. I don't think they understand that I like playing with young characters to deal with that. I love the idea of enpowering them. I want to be the punk uncle who gives the best toys and tells the stories you don't repeat to Mum. Or you do and a decent Mum punishs me for being awful. There is a part of me that dreads the actual punishing kids and helping with difficult issues part. Also teaching lessons is an idea that makes me barf.
I tend to work on this site with my England friends but Abril and Haneef are great too. Abril helped me fix a lot of my coding issues. Haneef started on a story then got bored. I feel like if I was home for just one summer we could complete it.
There's too much distance between England and home. I can't get the best of both worlds, but I sure wish I could.