Sorry

I never thought that I would come back to this site. There is a part of me that hopes that nobody sees this.

Back when I used this site a lot, I used to think that the worst thing was that pokemon has a character in it that I don't like. Apparently she's gone now. It's sad that I don't really care anymore. Ever since the show started to repeat itself all the time I lost interest. Only really the first series and the Orange Islands stuff is worth watching. Maybe getting rid of Misty will save the show. I'm a little old for this sort of thing though and won't be checking this out.

I want to apologise but I don't have the words.

I never really cared if people like Misty or Kasumi or whatever. I just wanted to dislike her without being told I was anti girl. I do like girls. I think part of my problem is that I like the cliches that she's supposed to represent so much that I want to see them at their best.

This isn't really about Misty though. I just can't talk about my actual problem. I should go to therapy but that's so scary. What if I mess up? What if I am messed up? Can I ever live anywhere other than an asylume? I don't feel safe.