Sexist parents are weird.
I feel like a key to a birdhouse sometimes. I never asked to be a key but here I am. I didn't chose to be an excuse for people to exploit each other any more than any one else did. I'm sure there have been many while women who have resented thier roles as being excuses for racism. At least I like to think that there are women like that. Likewise, I resent being an excuse for sexism.
Mildred's mum does this a lot. "You'll never find a husband if you act like that' she says as though I'm not standing there. I don't know how to word, 'I actually wouldn't mind a girlfriend like your daughter' espcually since our age difference is scary. Maybe I just never could be a good husband. Am I supposed to be tougher?
Bang bang bang.
My parents are loving and sweet. I still feel annoyed. I'm told that I'm great because I'm not white. I'm told I exsist because I'm male. I'm told that I exsist to teach white people lessons. It's a false greatness. I feel resentment. I'm broken.